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finally.. the first new diary entry! i've finally finished the new diary. i couldn't wait any longer to put it out there, so theres a bit of a juxtaposition between the main site and this new diary lol. i'll start with the main site soon! i decided to redo it again. rather than moving all of the old diary entries here, i just decided to link the old diary because i wanted to preserve it. but man, this took some serious effort. but i'm quite happy with it! it's much more pleasant on the eyes. i do miss the griminess of the older one, but i tried to stick with a mostly dark color palette again. the hardest part of this page was probably matching all of the colors! choosing a font was pretty hard as well, and positioning things... like the buttons.
its strange to think about the fact that even going back by a year, i couldn't imagine making something like this. i never would've thought that i'd get into coding. i'd always wanted to try it, but i thought that it was too hard to even attempt. even if i'm still quite amateur, i'm quite proud of myself!
anyway, if you're wondering why i'm writing so normally right now, its because i'm still in the phase of wanting this place to look presentable, so i'm trying to write as normal a possible lol. i managed to sneak the entry thumbnails back in as well! i was struggling to try and find a way to make it look good. i'm supposed to be reading tess of the d'urbervilles for my english class right now, but instead i'm doing this. maybe i should've taken computer science instead. kidding. i have to read 20 pages every day for 6 days, and then i'll be caught up with the other guy in my class who started super late. i used to read an insane amount, probably because i was so lonely. but i don't read that much anymore. the last book that i read was confessions of a mask by yukio mishima, published in 1949.
it was a nice read. very wordy and jargon-heavy though! the ending is nothing special - nothing dramatic happens or anything. ko-chan is just forced to live the rest of his life after coming to terms with being gay after rejecting the woman that loved him. he's an interesting character, sometimes in a bad way. that was more impactful for me, i guess. the book follows him throughout the different stages of his life, and how he battles with his sexuality in each one. some think that its semi-autobiographical, in which case, mishima is seriously messed up lol. the theme of violence and lust blending together is a big thing. overall, i enjoyed reading it.
i've really been wanting to write about a game that i've been playing recently, but i can't because co-founder of sillian will see it and i don't really want to explain myself. some entry thumbnails that i used are from it. i'm being silenced. well, i hope you enjoyed this pleasant surprise. feel free to email me any feedback or questions and stuff! thanks for reading!
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hello! hope you're doing well. my boyfriend is a drug dealer now.