18th of may 2026 , 1:08am
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hey! hope you're well.
today i showed my dad my website. hes been wanting to see it for two years, and he finally saw a bit of it in fullscreen so that he couldnt see the url. i have so much gay stuff on my laptop that i was silently crying the whole time as i was going through some of it. thank god that i was talking about the bank holiday last entry! but yeah, he seemed happy to see it after all of this time, and that made me happy. it felt nice to see my hard work being recognized lol. he made me jump out of my skin for a little bit because i thought that he saw the url of this website, but it turns out that he just saw someone elses website url that someone left on the guestbook. he said "yeah i know the url, but ill forget it soon." and i thought that he was talking about mine... stupid! he seemed to like it, so my confidence is a bit higher now. i really dislike showing my work to people that i know personally, because im extremely self-conscious. it felt like showing my soul, thats how important this website is to me! but exposure is the key! maybe ill show my sister... shes been asking to see it too.
my dad and i have been talking about me moving away soon as well. i want to move somewhere pretty far away, and hes worried about me moving there because it has a high crime rate. also because im super bad at remembering to eat! he said that i have to get my microwave license before i can leave... i already have it! im not sure when ill actually move out, but either way, i dont really mind. i like living with my family!
now dad, if you're seeing this, i wanna talk about gay stuff still, so if you've broken your promise and you're seeing this, stop reading! alright... i got my lamento art book that i was talking about a few entries ago, and im super happy about it! it was way bigger than i expected it to be. its huge! it looks pretty nice on my bookshelf as well lol. it accidentally fell over a few days ago and completely knocked my bonsai tree on the floor, so that was a pain to clean up... i was so worried for my plant... but i taped it, so it shouldnt fall now. im too lazy to take photos of it right now, which is annoying me... ill get around to it. maybe ill put them in my lamento shrine that im working on. but yeah, it was great to look through. there were early concept designs for the environments and weapons, which was very fun to see. i loved seeing art of kagari and shui. they looked so pretty! flipping between asato and kaltz's pages was also pretty funny, because you can really see that asato didnt inherit a single gene from kaltz at all... and of course, rai in a swimsuit. there were a lot of staff notes as well, which ill get around to reading eventually. i thought that there would be a lot more sketches of cgs, but it was more of just concept designs of the individual characters and environments. there were sketches of fully rendered offical art on the first few pages though. overall, im very happy! i've ordered the official visual fanbook green notes as well. with the dust jacket, i think... it said in the listing, so i guess so. i think it should be coming in a few days now. i need to be better with my money!
oh, and my asato plushie came! he looks like such an idiot. its probably just me, but his neutral sprite in the game looks mildly confused, and his plushie somehow still conveys that. im probably just seeing things... enough lamento... i pruned and fertilized some of my plants yesterday. i hope that they can grow even stronger and healthier!
well, thats all i can think to say. thanks for reading! please stay safe!
3rd of may 2026 , 9:00pm
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hello! hope you've had a good day.
yes! theres a bank holiday this monday for may day. i'm happy. i absolutely hate mondays! monday isnt much different from any other day in the week for me, but still... i hate them. well, i remember saying that i'd speak about a package thats arrived last entry. so i got a pucca wallet! i wish that i could show you some pictures, but i'm too lazy to take some right now. but its very nice! i'm happy. i've been feeling pretty good for a while now, which feels weird. usually i'm really depressed, but things have been really peaceful lately, and i'm actually enjoying being alive right now. my window is open, so i can hear the birds. and the running water from the pond... and i'm sitting at my desk, and it feels wonderful. oh, theres a really beautiful tree outside of my window, and pigeons and magpies like to perch on it, and i like looking at them go about their business. i just thought of that, since i'm staring right at it right now. i'm so happy to be able to see all of this mundane stuff, because its really pretty, and i can really appreciate it now. its nice...
i had a pretty funny dream the other day. i was opening a package that had my lamento art book in it. when i woke up, i was thinking, "man, i must be way more excited than i thought i was about this". i had another dream as well, but i forgot. so interesting! i sometimes have dreams about lamento in general, because i play it at night before i go to bed. i remember when i was playing togainu no chi and i kept getting nightmares about shiki chasing me through various locations... it was very scary. my lamento dreams are more like, just watching konoe walk through various locations. they're much more peaceful, because luckily there are no malevolent dicators in lamento. unlike togainu no chi... but having dreams about games or movies that i've watched is pretty rare! usually my dreams are just of me walking through random roads that i've never seen in my life until i can find the way back home again. very boring!
you know, my aunt is living in sri lanka right now, and i was thinking that i'd like to go away to a different country and live somewhere new for a while as well. i wanna visit lots of cool places, just to see what its like. but i feel like ill get really lonely. but maybe thats just the payoff! i wanna see as much cool stuff as i can. im not sure where id like to live in particular. i'll think about it.
well, thats all that i wanted to say! i'm happy that i don't have to go to college tomorrow... thanks for reading, please stay safe!
29th of april 2026 , 9:21pm
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hello. hope you're good!
my asato (lamento) figure got delivered today! i was so eager to go straight home to put him on my shelf, but i ended up going to a plant nursery, and i got a really nice new plant and plant pot! the plant itself already came with a pot, but i got a different one instead, and my mom wanted the one it originally came in. so she can use that to plant some new cuttings! very nice. anyway, i went home to open my new asato figure, and the seller i bought him from left a really ornate and beautiful origami crane in the box for me as well. i was blown away... he used such pretty paper! its on my shelf as well now lol. you might be able to see it in the pictures i'm about to show you if you zoom in.
heres some pictures of my asato figure!
i think that he looks really cool. he looks super angry, and because hes next to konoe, it looks like hes shouting at him lol. if you look at the picture in the top-left, you can see a random blue monkey on the figure base. i ran out of things to use as decoration, so i have to use my little kipling monkey. his name is freddie... well, i guess it kinda works, since hes blue? maybe i should buy one of asato's little coin figures as well and him and freddie can hang out. you can see the drama cd in the picture that came with him as well! i was so relieved when i opened the box and saw it... when i bought konoe's figure, the seller made a mistake on the listing and i thought that his cd was included when it wasn't. sad. i mean, i don't even have a cd player to listen to it, but it looks cool.. so its worth it. he comes with his top as well, but i took it off because the feng shui was a little off... much more harmonic and balanced now.
there werent many photos online that i could find of this figure in a clear quality, so it was hard to know what i was really buying. but im so glad that i got him, because he looks so nice! i love having little people on my shelf. its great. i wanna buy rai's figure as well (i also wanna buy a handmade rebecca chambers figure that i saw online...), but i'm not sure when i'll get around to it. you know, the price people were selling bardo's figure for compared to the other three made me laugh quite a bit. bardo isn't sought after at all lol. poor guy... anyway, i'm really happy that i have asato on my shelf now! hes such a wonderful character and i love him a lot! hes incredibly awkward, sincere, tragic and weird and probably autistic and i'm just baffled by him. hes so great.
so yeah, not much else to say. i have another thing arriving tomorrow that i'd like to talk about as well next entry, since this one is already pretty long. thanks for letting me show you my stupid trinkets! please stay safe!
28th of april 2026 , 10:20pm
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hey! nice to see you.
a package that i've been waiting for arrived yesterday.. its my pucca writing set! i love it a lot! my family likes to gather around whenever someone opens a package, so everyone got a kick out of it. a friend of mine used to send me letters on special occasions like my birthdays or my graduation, and i loved it when she wrote to me, so i think that i'll send her a letter with my new cool pucca writing set for her birthday. i'm not too sure what to get for her birthday this year. its in june, so i have a while to think. maybe i could get her a plant? i'm so bad at giving gifts! i'll think of something!
heres a picture of the writing set!
speaking of packages, the asato figure that i ordered is still god knows where. about the thing i said earlier, with my family liking to watch while someone opens a package. i just realized that my family must know every time when a figure that i've ordered has arrived, because the only time that i don't let them see what i'm opening is when its a figure, and then they see something new on my shelf. and then they're like, "can i see your new thing?" but i seriously can't look them dead in the eye and say "yeah, heres my new catboy figure! its rare, its from 2006!" to my poor parents.
that reminds me! my mom spoke to me today to tell me that my dad accidentially set her hair on fire, then she left. how that even ended up happening is still beyond me. anyway, i think i'll end this here! thanks for reading, and please stay safe!
26th of april 2026 , 10:20pm
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hello! hope you're well!
gurgh... its monday tomorrow. i might hate mondays even more than garfield. my class starts at 11:50, but i'm still sad. and i'll be at college all day.. but after that, i can go home! and i think i might work on this site a little tomorrow after i get home. i haven't been updating sillian as much as i usually do, because i don't really know what else to add to this place... i've made every main page that i wanted to add. i'll think of something! web design is my passion.. yes..
the sky looks really nice right now. its pitch black. i wonder how many people went to look at the sky after they read that! probably no one lol. i really love the sky, especially at night. i live in the suburbs, so when you look up at night, you can see a lot of stars. its really pretty. you know when you look deep into an open flame, and you're just hypnotized by it? i get that same sort of feeling when i look up at the night sky. its so big and it goes on forever, and you can just stare at it for ages.. its great.
i'm not really sure what else to say. i'm feeling pretty calm right now. i feel like i really want to do the things that i love doing constantly. thats a pretty big feeling that i'm getting right now. i need to make something! i think i'll go and draw. well, thank you for reading this! please stay safe!
23rd of april 2026 , 11:03pm
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hey! nice to see you!
today was my birthday! it was really nice. probably one of the best birthdays that i've ever had. i got some really nice gifts, and i splurged some of my own money to get some things as well... which i'm currently regretting a little bit. but its fine! i spent some time with my family as well, and we watched five nights at freddy's 2 because my sister wanted to. surprisingly, my sister got bored half way through, and my mom was the only one actually immersed in it the whole time. we ordered food, and my dad was actually happy with what he ordered. he always complains about at least one thing, but he was happy with it! i was surprised. even though i had college in the afternoon, celebrating my birthday ended the day off on a great note, so i'm happy! on the way back home after picking up mcdonalds, my sister spoke to me about roblox the whole time. and she totally reminded me of myself when i was her age... like wow.
anyway, yeah, i got some great gifts from my family. i was super happy.. my mom got me this cool pucca shower gel and bath lotion set in this really cute little pouch, and she also got me another pucca themed bath set with some bath bombs and confetti, that i will probably never use because they're too precious... she got me a really cute pucca plushie as well. oh, and some pucca hairpins. as you can tell, i like pucca a lot. pucca is the titular character from the show 'pucca', in case you didn't know. i was extremely happy! i'm not too good at expressing my emotions in situations like birthdays and christmas, but i tried my best to really show how much i loved the gifts that she got me. i kept showing her them lol. usually, i feel quite guilty when my birthday comes around, because we're not the most well-off family. we're quite poor. i hope that they know how happy i am.
my grandma got me a wonderful piggy bank in the shape of a hedgehog as well, which is on my shelf right now. i put some coins in it.. i love it a lot. right, and i did some spending myself as well. i got myself a really cute pucca wallet, and a pucca writing set with some envelopes, a gel pen, and some stickers. and a new pin to put on my pucca bag. more pucca... surprisingly, a lot of pucca merchandise is really cheap. i was able to get all of this stuff for quite cheap. phew...
also, i finally gave in and bought myself a 1/10 figure of asato from lamento as well... i was torturing myself, thinking about if i should buy a figure of asato or the damage version of akira from togainu no chi's 1/8 figure. seriously, i was really scrutinizing over this. i ended up thinking, well, i already have the regular version of the figure, so do i really need the other version as well right now? i can just buy him later if i want to. so i got asato! him and konoe can sit on my shelf together now! oh, and i got the lamento art book, because i love chinatsu kurahana's art. i think shes one of my favorite artists. i just love how she renders her drawings! i remember playing fire emblem three houses, and i thought "man, these character designs are awesome," and then i played togainu no chi. and i was thinking, i feel like i really recognize this artstyle, but i'm not sure where from.. then i found out that tatana kana used to be kurahana's old penname, and that was pretty funny to find out. maybe i should by the three houses art book as well.. that'd be cool. i'm happy that i finally have another art book!
so, great birthday! everyone looked happy, and i'm glad. i'm excited to wear my pucca hairpins. i might use one of the pucca bath bombs as well. maybe...
this is pretty long, so i'll stop here. thanks for reading, and please stay safe!
18th of april 2026 , 2:38pm
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hello. hope you're well.
i finished watching death of a salesman (1985) earlier. i cried four times. i'll cry at anything, but wow, at the end when biff is about to leave for good and he finally speaks to willy properly, it was just so sad. insanely sad. i think its a great movie. come to think of it, i cried at the end of rain man, and dustin hoffman is in that as well. but the movie i've cried the most at is grave of the fireflies by studio ghibli. i spent what felt like an hour sat at the kitchen table just crying. i think it was more like sobbing, because of how sad it made me. god, thats a good movie. it all hits you at once! please watch it. i've been meaning to finish watching noriko's dinner table as well, so that'll be the next movie that i watch.
also, my new porcelain doll came! i've named her kainé, like kainé from nier. i'll put her on the collections page eventually, but i'm too lazy right now. i'm struggling to find a good spot to put her, but i'll find it eventually! right now she's just next to devola and popola. she looks pretty funny lol.
i've found a new band that i really like recently! they're called coo:ya. they're not active anymore sadly, but for some reason, the youtube algorithm has been recommending their songs to a lot of people. i'm happy, because they're really wonderful. miyo, the vocalist, has also been replying to comments that've been made recently as well, and she said that their songs will be on spotify soon.
here's a song that i really like by them.
even if it was twenty years late, i'm happy that i got to find their songs. i really love them. please check them out!
alright, thats all. thank you for reading! please stay safe!
13th of april 2026 , 10:47am
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hello! hope you're well!
i took today off because i have a dentist appointment, and my only class is at the same time! its at 2:30! i laughed when i heard it. do you get it? like... tooth hurty. anyway, today would've been my little sister's first day back at school, but she didn't want to go. my mom struggled to convince her to go for a while, because my sister was crying and my mom felt bad. and my sister couldn't have a day off without a doctor's note or a picture of some medicine that she'd been prescribed. so, obviously the next logical step is to take a picture of your own medication that you got prescribed and edit it to look like its your daughter's so that she can have the day off, right? so, thats what happened. my mom knocked on the bathroom door while i was in the middle of showering, and said "hey, i need your help." and whenever i hear that from her, i instantly know that she's dug herself into a really avoidable situation. and so she got me to edit a picture of her own medication and replace her name with my sister's so that she could take the day off. being a younger sibling sure sounds nice...
i was a bit ticked off at first, like, why am i getting dragged into this situation that you could've totally avoided? but she said that it looked really convincing, and i stopped feeling mad after that. what a pushover!
after i sent her back the image, she was like, "are you gonna put this story on your website?" and i thought, damn... she got me. i am. well, my sister was happy about her day off, so i'm happy. i remember when i'd dread going to school as well, and how hard it was to go every morning. she probably isn't missing much anyway! but my dad is gonna be so angry when he wakes up...
i've ordered a new porcelain doll as well. it matches my other porcelain dolls, devola and popola. you can check out the collections page on this site if you're interested in seeing them! i was so happy when i found her... i'm not sure what i'm gonna name her. maybe kainé, after kainé from nier? the doll has white hair like her. i think thats it! devola, popola and kainé. i'm excited for her to arrive!
thats all that i can think to write. thanks for reading, please stay safe! :)
6th of april 2026 , 8:21pm
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hello! hope you're good!
i'm feeling a little down right now.. i sacrificed my sleep time to draw, and i'm not happy with the final result. i've sort of been neglecting drawing to code instead, so i've gotten a bit rusty. i'm a little upset about that. maybe i'll try and stay up until the next day so that i can reset my sleep schedule or something. i swear, every time that i've tried to do that, i always end up falling asleep... its impossible! anyway, yeah, i'll draw some more later so i can get used to it again. arrgh, i'm still so upset about my drawing though... i spent so long on it! i can't draw men at all! oh, well. i'll make an even better drawing next time.
also, i made a new page for this site! its of all of my collections. i don't really collect much else except plushies, dolls, and tech, but there were some exceptions like my pucca alarm clock. i was too lazy to go back and add a miscellaneous section after i had forgotten to, so it isn't on there. even though i wanted to put it there a lot.. i added a special description for each object, which took a while. but i think the thing that took the longest was editing the photos. there were a lot... but i'm glad that i finished the page. i'll update it every time i add a new thing to my collection thats interesting. and sorry for my very amateur photo-taking skills. i tried my best!
oh, and i was playing your turn to die earlier. i had finished it up to part 3 section b, but that was a few years ago, so i've forgotten practically everything. so i'm replaying part b again. its such a good game! maybe i'll go all the way back to the beginning and play it all again one day. i wonder when the next part will come out.
thats all that i wanted to say! thanks for reading. :)
2nd of april 2026 , 5:32am
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hey, hope you're well.
i remade the diary again! it matches the rest of the site a lot more now. it took many, many hours.. i started at 11pm, and its now 5:32. but luckily it didn't feel like too long. well, i hope its nicer to read now! i made the links more obvious-looking this time, since it was a bit hard to tell what was a link and what wasn't before. oh, and if you hover over certain little pixel guys, they do something.. i thought that'd be fun. the stamps are sort of annoying me, so i think that i'll try to change them asap lol. but overall, i'm a lot happier with it now!
anyway, i saw a nice tabby cat today! me and my dad always stare out of the window whenever we see a cat in the garden. i miss having a cat..
i'm super hungry.. every time i work on this site, i always forget to eat. which is just about every day! i need to eat more. and drink more milk, but it might be too late for that. oh, the sun is starting to come up now. i seriously need to start going to bed at normal times again!
i'll end it here. thanks for reading! :)
1st of april 2026 , 4:06pm
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hey, hope you're good!
i'm in an incredible mood today.. i haven't really done much yet, but my long awaited package finally arrived.. my konoe (from lamento) figure that i had been debating about buying for ages. since i had ordered him, at least once a day i'd talk about how much i wanted him to arrive already. and now hes finally here! so i'm very happy.
i put him on my shelf with my bonsai tree, and since he's sitting on a tree branch, i thought that it'd match a little lol. it sorta does. i took some pictures as well, so i'll put them here! my akira figure ended up photobombing one of the photos because i forgot to move him at first though.
here are the photos!
the figure comes with his cloak and gauntlets as well, but i took them off. i was a little disappointed that it didn't come with the drama cd as well, since it had a picture of it in the listing. i messaged the guy to ask about it, so hopefully he can send it over. it was a little scary, since i'm a bit shy lol. hopefully it isn't too annoying for him. i wish that nitrochiral would make more lamento figures. there are a bunch of togainu no chi and dmmd ones, but lamento doesn't get much love at all lol. it got a stage play about two or three years ago even though the game is twenty years old, so maybe they'll start caring about lamento a little more. probably not.
so, thats been my day! i'll keep remaking the diary (again) in a minute, but i'd like to show you my bookshelf first, now that konoe is there.
heres my stupid bookshelf!
you can see my pucca clock up on the top shelf. best clock ever. alright, thats all i wanted to talk about! happy april 1st. thanks for reading! :)
now dad, if you're seeing this, i wanna talk about gay stuff still, so if you've broken your promise and you're seeing this, stop reading! alright... i got my lamento art book that i was talking about a few entries ago, and im super happy about it! it was way bigger than i expected it to be. its huge! it looks pretty nice on my bookshelf as well lol. it accidentally fell over a few days ago and completely knocked my bonsai tree on the floor, so that was a pain to clean up... i was so worried for my plant... but i taped it, so it shouldnt fall now. im too lazy to take photos of it right now, which is annoying me... ill get around to it. maybe ill put them in my lamento shrine that im working on. but yeah, it was great to look through. there were early concept designs for the environments and weapons, which was very fun to see. i loved seeing art of kagari and shui. they looked so pretty! flipping between asato and kaltz's pages was also pretty funny, because you can really see that asato didnt inherit a single gene from kaltz at all... and of course, rai in a swimsuit. there were a lot of staff notes as well, which ill get around to reading eventually. i thought that there would be a lot more sketches of cgs, but it was more of just concept designs of the individual characters and environments. there were sketches of fully rendered offical art on the first few pages though. overall, im very happy! i've ordered the official visual fanbook green notes as well. with the dust jacket, i think... it said in the listing, so i guess so. i think it should be coming in a few days now. i need to be better with my money!
oh, and my asato plushie came! he looks like such an idiot. its probably just me, but his neutral sprite in the game looks mildly confused, and his plushie somehow still conveys that. im probably just seeing things... enough lamento... i pruned and fertilized some of my plants yesterday. i hope that they can grow even stronger and healthier!
well, thats all i can think to say. thanks for reading! please stay safe!
3rd of may 2026 , 9:00pm
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hello! hope you've had a good day.
yes! theres a bank holiday this monday for may day. i'm happy. i absolutely hate mondays! monday isnt much different from any other day in the week for me, but still... i hate them. well, i remember saying that i'd speak about a package thats arrived last entry. so i got a pucca wallet! i wish that i could show you some pictures, but i'm too lazy to take some right now. but its very nice! i'm happy. i've been feeling pretty good for a while now, which feels weird. usually i'm really depressed, but things have been really peaceful lately, and i'm actually enjoying being alive right now. my window is open, so i can hear the birds. and the running water from the pond... and i'm sitting at my desk, and it feels wonderful. oh, theres a really beautiful tree outside of my window, and pigeons and magpies like to perch on it, and i like looking at them go about their business. i just thought of that, since i'm staring right at it right now. i'm so happy to be able to see all of this mundane stuff, because its really pretty, and i can really appreciate it now. its nice...
i had a pretty funny dream the other day. i was opening a package that had my lamento art book in it. when i woke up, i was thinking, "man, i must be way more excited than i thought i was about this". i had another dream as well, but i forgot. so interesting! i sometimes have dreams about lamento in general, because i play it at night before i go to bed. i remember when i was playing togainu no chi and i kept getting nightmares about shiki chasing me through various locations... it was very scary. my lamento dreams are more like, just watching konoe walk through various locations. they're much more peaceful, because luckily there are no malevolent dicators in lamento. unlike togainu no chi... but having dreams about games or movies that i've watched is pretty rare! usually my dreams are just of me walking through random roads that i've never seen in my life until i can find the way back home again. very boring!
you know, my aunt is living in sri lanka right now, and i was thinking that i'd like to go away to a different country and live somewhere new for a while as well. i wanna visit lots of cool places, just to see what its like. but i feel like ill get really lonely. but maybe thats just the payoff! i wanna see as much cool stuff as i can. im not sure where id like to live in particular. i'll think about it.
well, thats all that i wanted to say! i'm happy that i don't have to go to college tomorrow... thanks for reading, please stay safe!
29th of april 2026 , 9:21pm
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hello. hope you're good!
my asato (lamento) figure got delivered today! i was so eager to go straight home to put him on my shelf, but i ended up going to a plant nursery, and i got a really nice new plant and plant pot! the plant itself already came with a pot, but i got a different one instead, and my mom wanted the one it originally came in. so she can use that to plant some new cuttings! very nice. anyway, i went home to open my new asato figure, and the seller i bought him from left a really ornate and beautiful origami crane in the box for me as well. i was blown away... he used such pretty paper! its on my shelf as well now lol. you might be able to see it in the pictures i'm about to show you if you zoom in.
i think that he looks really cool. he looks super angry, and because hes next to konoe, it looks like hes shouting at him lol. if you look at the picture in the top-left, you can see a random blue monkey on the figure base. i ran out of things to use as decoration, so i have to use my little kipling monkey. his name is freddie... well, i guess it kinda works, since hes blue? maybe i should buy one of asato's little coin figures as well and him and freddie can hang out. you can see the drama cd in the picture that came with him as well! i was so relieved when i opened the box and saw it... when i bought konoe's figure, the seller made a mistake on the listing and i thought that his cd was included when it wasn't. sad. i mean, i don't even have a cd player to listen to it, but it looks cool.. so its worth it. he comes with his top as well, but i took it off because the feng shui was a little off... much more harmonic and balanced now.
there werent many photos online that i could find of this figure in a clear quality, so it was hard to know what i was really buying. but im so glad that i got him, because he looks so nice! i love having little people on my shelf. its great. i wanna buy rai's figure as well (i also wanna buy a handmade rebecca chambers figure that i saw online...), but i'm not sure when i'll get around to it. you know, the price people were selling bardo's figure for compared to the other three made me laugh quite a bit. bardo isn't sought after at all lol. poor guy... anyway, i'm really happy that i have asato on my shelf now! hes such a wonderful character and i love him a lot! hes incredibly awkward, sincere, tragic and weird and probably autistic and i'm just baffled by him. hes so great.
so yeah, not much else to say. i have another thing arriving tomorrow that i'd like to talk about as well next entry, since this one is already pretty long. thanks for letting me show you my stupid trinkets! please stay safe!
28th of april 2026 , 10:20pm
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hey! nice to see you.
a package that i've been waiting for arrived yesterday.. its my pucca writing set! i love it a lot! my family likes to gather around whenever someone opens a package, so everyone got a kick out of it. a friend of mine used to send me letters on special occasions like my birthdays or my graduation, and i loved it when she wrote to me, so i think that i'll send her a letter with my new cool pucca writing set for her birthday. i'm not too sure what to get for her birthday this year. its in june, so i have a while to think. maybe i could get her a plant? i'm so bad at giving gifts! i'll think of something!
speaking of packages, the asato figure that i ordered is still god knows where. about the thing i said earlier, with my family liking to watch while someone opens a package. i just realized that my family must know every time when a figure that i've ordered has arrived, because the only time that i don't let them see what i'm opening is when its a figure, and then they see something new on my shelf. and then they're like, "can i see your new thing?" but i seriously can't look them dead in the eye and say "yeah, heres my new catboy figure! its rare, its from 2006!" to my poor parents.
that reminds me! my mom spoke to me today to tell me that my dad accidentially set her hair on fire, then she left. how that even ended up happening is still beyond me. anyway, i think i'll end this here! thanks for reading, and please stay safe!
26th of april 2026 , 10:20pm
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hello! hope you're well!
gurgh... its monday tomorrow. i might hate mondays even more than garfield. my class starts at 11:50, but i'm still sad. and i'll be at college all day.. but after that, i can go home! and i think i might work on this site a little tomorrow after i get home. i haven't been updating sillian as much as i usually do, because i don't really know what else to add to this place... i've made every main page that i wanted to add. i'll think of something! web design is my passion.. yes..
the sky looks really nice right now. its pitch black. i wonder how many people went to look at the sky after they read that! probably no one lol. i really love the sky, especially at night. i live in the suburbs, so when you look up at night, you can see a lot of stars. its really pretty. you know when you look deep into an open flame, and you're just hypnotized by it? i get that same sort of feeling when i look up at the night sky. its so big and it goes on forever, and you can just stare at it for ages.. its great.
i'm not really sure what else to say. i'm feeling pretty calm right now. i feel like i really want to do the things that i love doing constantly. thats a pretty big feeling that i'm getting right now. i need to make something! i think i'll go and draw. well, thank you for reading this! please stay safe!
23rd of april 2026 , 11:03pm
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hey! nice to see you!
today was my birthday! it was really nice. probably one of the best birthdays that i've ever had. i got some really nice gifts, and i splurged some of my own money to get some things as well... which i'm currently regretting a little bit. but its fine! i spent some time with my family as well, and we watched five nights at freddy's 2 because my sister wanted to. surprisingly, my sister got bored half way through, and my mom was the only one actually immersed in it the whole time. we ordered food, and my dad was actually happy with what he ordered. he always complains about at least one thing, but he was happy with it! i was surprised. even though i had college in the afternoon, celebrating my birthday ended the day off on a great note, so i'm happy! on the way back home after picking up mcdonalds, my sister spoke to me about roblox the whole time. and she totally reminded me of myself when i was her age... like wow.
anyway, yeah, i got some great gifts from my family. i was super happy.. my mom got me this cool pucca shower gel and bath lotion set in this really cute little pouch, and she also got me another pucca themed bath set with some bath bombs and confetti, that i will probably never use because they're too precious... she got me a really cute pucca plushie as well. oh, and some pucca hairpins. as you can tell, i like pucca a lot. pucca is the titular character from the show 'pucca', in case you didn't know. i was extremely happy! i'm not too good at expressing my emotions in situations like birthdays and christmas, but i tried my best to really show how much i loved the gifts that she got me. i kept showing her them lol. usually, i feel quite guilty when my birthday comes around, because we're not the most well-off family. we're quite poor. i hope that they know how happy i am.
my grandma got me a wonderful piggy bank in the shape of a hedgehog as well, which is on my shelf right now. i put some coins in it.. i love it a lot. right, and i did some spending myself as well. i got myself a really cute pucca wallet, and a pucca writing set with some envelopes, a gel pen, and some stickers. and a new pin to put on my pucca bag. more pucca... surprisingly, a lot of pucca merchandise is really cheap. i was able to get all of this stuff for quite cheap. phew...
also, i finally gave in and bought myself a 1/10 figure of asato from lamento as well... i was torturing myself, thinking about if i should buy a figure of asato or the damage version of akira from togainu no chi's 1/8 figure. seriously, i was really scrutinizing over this. i ended up thinking, well, i already have the regular version of the figure, so do i really need the other version as well right now? i can just buy him later if i want to. so i got asato! him and konoe can sit on my shelf together now! oh, and i got the lamento art book, because i love chinatsu kurahana's art. i think shes one of my favorite artists. i just love how she renders her drawings! i remember playing fire emblem three houses, and i thought "man, these character designs are awesome," and then i played togainu no chi. and i was thinking, i feel like i really recognize this artstyle, but i'm not sure where from.. then i found out that tatana kana used to be kurahana's old penname, and that was pretty funny to find out. maybe i should by the three houses art book as well.. that'd be cool. i'm happy that i finally have another art book!
so, great birthday! everyone looked happy, and i'm glad. i'm excited to wear my pucca hairpins. i might use one of the pucca bath bombs as well. maybe...
this is pretty long, so i'll stop here. thanks for reading, and please stay safe!
18th of april 2026 , 2:38pm
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hello. hope you're well.
i finished watching death of a salesman (1985) earlier. i cried four times. i'll cry at anything, but wow, at the end when biff is about to leave for good and he finally speaks to willy properly, it was just so sad. insanely sad. i think its a great movie. come to think of it, i cried at the end of rain man, and dustin hoffman is in that as well. but the movie i've cried the most at is grave of the fireflies by studio ghibli. i spent what felt like an hour sat at the kitchen table just crying. i think it was more like sobbing, because of how sad it made me. god, thats a good movie. it all hits you at once! please watch it. i've been meaning to finish watching noriko's dinner table as well, so that'll be the next movie that i watch.
also, my new porcelain doll came! i've named her kainé, like kainé from nier. i'll put her on the collections page eventually, but i'm too lazy right now. i'm struggling to find a good spot to put her, but i'll find it eventually! right now she's just next to devola and popola. she looks pretty funny lol.
i've found a new band that i really like recently! they're called coo:ya. they're not active anymore sadly, but for some reason, the youtube algorithm has been recommending their songs to a lot of people. i'm happy, because they're really wonderful. miyo, the vocalist, has also been replying to comments that've been made recently as well, and she said that their songs will be on spotify soon.
even if it was twenty years late, i'm happy that i got to find their songs. i really love them. please check them out!
alright, thats all. thank you for reading! please stay safe!
13th of april 2026 , 10:47am
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hello! hope you're well!
i took today off because i have a dentist appointment, and my only class is at the same time! its at 2:30! i laughed when i heard it. do you get it? like... tooth hurty. anyway, today would've been my little sister's first day back at school, but she didn't want to go. my mom struggled to convince her to go for a while, because my sister was crying and my mom felt bad. and my sister couldn't have a day off without a doctor's note or a picture of some medicine that she'd been prescribed. so, obviously the next logical step is to take a picture of your own medication that you got prescribed and edit it to look like its your daughter's so that she can have the day off, right? so, thats what happened. my mom knocked on the bathroom door while i was in the middle of showering, and said "hey, i need your help." and whenever i hear that from her, i instantly know that she's dug herself into a really avoidable situation. and so she got me to edit a picture of her own medication and replace her name with my sister's so that she could take the day off. being a younger sibling sure sounds nice...
i was a bit ticked off at first, like, why am i getting dragged into this situation that you could've totally avoided? but she said that it looked really convincing, and i stopped feeling mad after that. what a pushover!
after i sent her back the image, she was like, "are you gonna put this story on your website?" and i thought, damn... she got me. i am. well, my sister was happy about her day off, so i'm happy. i remember when i'd dread going to school as well, and how hard it was to go every morning. she probably isn't missing much anyway! but my dad is gonna be so angry when he wakes up...
i've ordered a new porcelain doll as well. it matches my other porcelain dolls, devola and popola. you can check out the collections page on this site if you're interested in seeing them! i was so happy when i found her... i'm not sure what i'm gonna name her. maybe kainé, after kainé from nier? the doll has white hair like her. i think thats it! devola, popola and kainé. i'm excited for her to arrive!
thats all that i can think to write. thanks for reading, please stay safe! :)
6th of april 2026 , 8:21pm
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hello! hope you're good!
i'm feeling a little down right now.. i sacrificed my sleep time to draw, and i'm not happy with the final result. i've sort of been neglecting drawing to code instead, so i've gotten a bit rusty. i'm a little upset about that. maybe i'll try and stay up until the next day so that i can reset my sleep schedule or something. i swear, every time that i've tried to do that, i always end up falling asleep... its impossible! anyway, yeah, i'll draw some more later so i can get used to it again. arrgh, i'm still so upset about my drawing though... i spent so long on it! i can't draw men at all! oh, well. i'll make an even better drawing next time.
also, i made a new page for this site! its of all of my collections. i don't really collect much else except plushies, dolls, and tech, but there were some exceptions like my pucca alarm clock. i was too lazy to go back and add a miscellaneous section after i had forgotten to, so it isn't on there. even though i wanted to put it there a lot.. i added a special description for each object, which took a while. but i think the thing that took the longest was editing the photos. there were a lot... but i'm glad that i finished the page. i'll update it every time i add a new thing to my collection thats interesting. and sorry for my very amateur photo-taking skills. i tried my best!
oh, and i was playing your turn to die earlier. i had finished it up to part 3 section b, but that was a few years ago, so i've forgotten practically everything. so i'm replaying part b again. its such a good game! maybe i'll go all the way back to the beginning and play it all again one day. i wonder when the next part will come out.
thats all that i wanted to say! thanks for reading. :)
2nd of april 2026 , 5:32am
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hey, hope you're well.
i remade the diary again! it matches the rest of the site a lot more now. it took many, many hours.. i started at 11pm, and its now 5:32. but luckily it didn't feel like too long. well, i hope its nicer to read now! i made the links more obvious-looking this time, since it was a bit hard to tell what was a link and what wasn't before. oh, and if you hover over certain little pixel guys, they do something.. i thought that'd be fun. the stamps are sort of annoying me, so i think that i'll try to change them asap lol. but overall, i'm a lot happier with it now!
anyway, i saw a nice tabby cat today! me and my dad always stare out of the window whenever we see a cat in the garden. i miss having a cat..
i'm super hungry.. every time i work on this site, i always forget to eat. which is just about every day! i need to eat more. and drink more milk, but it might be too late for that. oh, the sun is starting to come up now. i seriously need to start going to bed at normal times again!
i'll end it here. thanks for reading! :)
1st of april 2026 , 4:06pm
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hey, hope you're good!
i'm in an incredible mood today.. i haven't really done much yet, but my long awaited package finally arrived.. my konoe (from lamento) figure that i had been debating about buying for ages. since i had ordered him, at least once a day i'd talk about how much i wanted him to arrive already. and now hes finally here! so i'm very happy.
i put him on my shelf with my bonsai tree, and since he's sitting on a tree branch, i thought that it'd match a little lol. it sorta does. i took some pictures as well, so i'll put them here! my akira figure ended up photobombing one of the photos because i forgot to move him at first though.
here are the photos!
the figure comes with his cloak and gauntlets as well, but i took them off. i was a little disappointed that it didn't come with the drama cd as well, since it had a picture of it in the listing. i messaged the guy to ask about it, so hopefully he can send it over. it was a little scary, since i'm a bit shy lol. hopefully it isn't too annoying for him. i wish that nitrochiral would make more lamento figures. there are a bunch of togainu no chi and dmmd ones, but lamento doesn't get much love at all lol. it got a stage play about two or three years ago even though the game is twenty years old, so maybe they'll start caring about lamento a little more. probably not.
so, thats been my day! i'll keep remaking the diary (again) in a minute, but i'd like to show you my bookshelf first, now that konoe is there.
heres my stupid bookshelf!
you can see my pucca clock up on the top shelf. best clock ever. alright, thats all i wanted to talk about! happy april 1st. thanks for reading! :)
alright, thats all. thank you for reading! please stay safe!
13th of april 2026 , 10:47am
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hello! hope you're well!
i took today off because i have a dentist appointment, and my only class is at the same time! its at 2:30! i laughed when i heard it. do you get it? like... tooth hurty. anyway, today would've been my little sister's first day back at school, but she didn't want to go. my mom struggled to convince her to go for a while, because my sister was crying and my mom felt bad. and my sister couldn't have a day off without a doctor's note or a picture of some medicine that she'd been prescribed. so, obviously the next logical step is to take a picture of your own medication that you got prescribed and edit it to look like its your daughter's so that she can have the day off, right? so, thats what happened. my mom knocked on the bathroom door while i was in the middle of showering, and said "hey, i need your help." and whenever i hear that from her, i instantly know that she's dug herself into a really avoidable situation. and so she got me to edit a picture of her own medication and replace her name with my sister's so that she could take the day off. being a younger sibling sure sounds nice...
i was a bit ticked off at first, like, why am i getting dragged into this situation that you could've totally avoided? but she said that it looked really convincing, and i stopped feeling mad after that. what a pushover!
after i sent her back the image, she was like, "are you gonna put this story on your website?" and i thought, damn... she got me. i am. well, my sister was happy about her day off, so i'm happy. i remember when i'd dread going to school as well, and how hard it was to go every morning. she probably isn't missing much anyway! but my dad is gonna be so angry when he wakes up...
i've ordered a new porcelain doll as well. it matches my other porcelain dolls, devola and popola. you can check out the collections page on this site if you're interested in seeing them! i was so happy when i found her... i'm not sure what i'm gonna name her. maybe kainé, after kainé from nier? the doll has white hair like her. i think thats it! devola, popola and kainé. i'm excited for her to arrive!
thats all that i can think to write. thanks for reading, please stay safe! :)
6th of april 2026 , 8:21pm
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hello! hope you're good!
i'm feeling a little down right now.. i sacrificed my sleep time to draw, and i'm not happy with the final result. i've sort of been neglecting drawing to code instead, so i've gotten a bit rusty. i'm a little upset about that. maybe i'll try and stay up until the next day so that i can reset my sleep schedule or something. i swear, every time that i've tried to do that, i always end up falling asleep... its impossible! anyway, yeah, i'll draw some more later so i can get used to it again. arrgh, i'm still so upset about my drawing though... i spent so long on it! i can't draw men at all! oh, well. i'll make an even better drawing next time.
also, i made a new page for this site! its of all of my collections. i don't really collect much else except plushies, dolls, and tech, but there were some exceptions like my pucca alarm clock. i was too lazy to go back and add a miscellaneous section after i had forgotten to, so it isn't on there. even though i wanted to put it there a lot.. i added a special description for each object, which took a while. but i think the thing that took the longest was editing the photos. there were a lot... but i'm glad that i finished the page. i'll update it every time i add a new thing to my collection thats interesting. and sorry for my very amateur photo-taking skills. i tried my best!
oh, and i was playing your turn to die earlier. i had finished it up to part 3 section b, but that was a few years ago, so i've forgotten practically everything. so i'm replaying part b again. its such a good game! maybe i'll go all the way back to the beginning and play it all again one day. i wonder when the next part will come out.
thats all that i wanted to say! thanks for reading. :)
2nd of april 2026 , 5:32am
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hey, hope you're well.
i remade the diary again! it matches the rest of the site a lot more now. it took many, many hours.. i started at 11pm, and its now 5:32. but luckily it didn't feel like too long. well, i hope its nicer to read now! i made the links more obvious-looking this time, since it was a bit hard to tell what was a link and what wasn't before. oh, and if you hover over certain little pixel guys, they do something.. i thought that'd be fun. the stamps are sort of annoying me, so i think that i'll try to change them asap lol. but overall, i'm a lot happier with it now!
anyway, i saw a nice tabby cat today! me and my dad always stare out of the window whenever we see a cat in the garden. i miss having a cat..
i'm super hungry.. every time i work on this site, i always forget to eat. which is just about every day! i need to eat more. and drink more milk, but it might be too late for that. oh, the sun is starting to come up now. i seriously need to start going to bed at normal times again!
i'll end it here. thanks for reading! :)
1st of april 2026 , 4:06pm
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hey, hope you're good!
i'm in an incredible mood today.. i haven't really done much yet, but my long awaited package finally arrived.. my konoe (from lamento) figure that i had been debating about buying for ages. since i had ordered him, at least once a day i'd talk about how much i wanted him to arrive already. and now hes finally here! so i'm very happy.
i put him on my shelf with my bonsai tree, and since he's sitting on a tree branch, i thought that it'd match a little lol. it sorta does. i took some pictures as well, so i'll put them here! my akira figure ended up photobombing one of the photos because i forgot to move him at first though.
the figure comes with his cloak and gauntlets as well, but i took them off. i was a little disappointed that it didn't come with the drama cd as well, since it had a picture of it in the listing. i messaged the guy to ask about it, so hopefully he can send it over. it was a little scary, since i'm a bit shy lol. hopefully it isn't too annoying for him. i wish that nitrochiral would make more lamento figures. there are a bunch of togainu no chi and dmmd ones, but lamento doesn't get much love at all lol. it got a stage play about two or three years ago even though the game is twenty years old, so maybe they'll start caring about lamento a little more. probably not.
so, thats been my day! i'll keep remaking the diary (again) in a minute, but i'd like to show you my bookshelf first, now that konoe is there.
you can see my pucca clock up on the top shelf. best clock ever. alright, thats all i wanted to talk about! happy april 1st. thanks for reading! :)
